| Location | Nottingham |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 9/2007 |
| Date of Death | 9/2007 |
| Visitors | 4,147 since 30/10/2007 |
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We have a 3yr old son called Samuel & we knew we wanted a 2nd child child & for Samuel to be big brother. My dreams came true when we found out we were pregnant last year but sadly miscarried at 12 weeks.
So utter joy again in April 2007 when another positive line appeared, the first 12 weeks was a very anxious time but surely we could not be that unlucky again. We had a scan at 7 weeks & all was well & again at 13 weeks when we saw our baby moving around.
At our 21 week scan we found out we were having another boy & I felt so immensley proud that I was going to be a mother of 2 boys. My mum & samuel came with us to the scan & it was wonderful, mum was amazed at how much you could see & the detail. The sonographer was so sure it was a boy we have a scan photo of his 'bits'.
I did suffer with bad back & pelvis pain from about 25 weeks but it did not really matter as i was having a healthy baby boy a much wanted addition to our family. Samuel decided he wanted to call the baby Matthew & at bathtime he would water my belly & say 'mummy we help baby matthew grow so he can come out soon'
Matthew was a very active baby always moving around & kicking me & although i used to moan saying 'oh i wish he would keep still for a minute' I loved the fact that i was getting to know Matthew & creating a wonderful bond between us.
On the 26th September, as usual Matthew was kicking around all day. That evening Matthew was a bit quiet but I was not too worried as I knew he had to sleep at some point. I woke at 6.30am after having a awful dream that Matthew had died, I poked at my belly expecting a swift kick back but there was nothing. I did everything I could to get Matthew to move or give me some sign he was ok but I could not get my son to move inside me. I wish I could remember the last time he kicked but because he was always so active i did not pay much attention.
I called the mdwife who advised me to call the hospital so I could go & get monitored to put my mind at rest. I decided to go on my own as I just thought I was being paranoid.
The midwife at the hospital tried to find Matthews heartbeat, but could'nt so said he may be in an awkard position & she would get a scanner. I think i knew deep downat this point my boy was dead. The doctor scanned me & I heard those words you never ever expect to hear, 'I am sorry but there is no heartbeat'.
The next day we came into the hospital to be induced & I thought there was no way I could give birth naturally to my dead baby. But your body takes over & at about 4.30pm the contractions really kicked in so started on gas & air & the wonderful support from my best friend Keeley & my partner Tony. At 6.30pm my mum arrived & the pain was really taking over. I knew Matthew was on his way but he was never going to let out a tiny cry or to look into his mummys eyes to see how much she loved & wanted him.
Our gorgeous baby boy was born at 8.47pm on the 28th September & he weighed 3lb 14oz & was perfect. Unfortunatley he had a large true knot in his cord & it was round his neck. He looked just like his daddy & we were able to spend about 5hrs with him. I was scared at what he may look like but he looked perfect, I just wanted to show him off to everyone we have some lovely photos & our hospital was wonderful they gave us a keepsake box with is hand & foot prints & lock of his hair.
We love you!
Hallo darling just a short note from grandma and grandaddy to say hallo and to say we miss you.. i hope you are looking after all your friends and especially having a lovely time with your greatgrandma and grandads. I wish you had had time to play with your brother and sisters they are great fun and i know they will never forget you .. and neither will we xxxxxxxx
Happy 3rd Birthday
My forever baby, Cant believe its been 3 years, just seems like yesterday we had to leave you in the hospital.
We love you soooo much & miss you every second of every day.
I know you are watching over us all especially your big bro & 2 little sisters. Its just so sad you are not here with us all we soo wish you were.
xxxxx Love you baby boyxxxxx
Hey Bubba,
Sorry Mummy only comes here on special times but it makes me so sad I think about you every second of every day though.
Well another Christmas is nearly here and another one without you but we all know you will be watching over us all with a big smile on your face. Grandmas has bought you a lovely xmas tree which I am going to bring to you today & I will bring your special xmas lantern & maybe a few other treats. I love you soo much little man & I ache to not have you here. xxxxx
Happy Birthday little one, play with the angels and be a happy. All our love, Rebecca, Max and Toby x x x
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ake a moment of your day
To maybe sit and in your mind
Think of all the precious babies
Yours, theirs and mine
Those whose short lives were over
Before they had really ever begun
Those precious little bundles
Who have made us all a Mum
Their tiny lives have touched us all
And what I want to say
They have brought us all together
Each and every day
The babies whose beautiful faces
In our minds forever will be
Whose names are etched within our hearts
For anyone, the whole world to see
The babies who touched our lives
Who we think of through our tears
I hope in time we will be able to smile
When we remember them through the years
So this week we remember baby Matthew
and all the babies who had to go
We shall show the world we are united
And how we love and miss them so X♥
Well baby boy 2 years ago today, my precious angel came into our lives & that day changed me as a person forever & I will never be the same again.
I feel hurt & let down that you were taken but proud & happy that I was the only one who got to know you & your little ways when you in mummys tummy. I hope you liked your balloons & the card Samuel made you & your nice bright new train. Love you my forever baby xxxxx
Hello my baby boy, I am so sorry I have not wrote to you in a while but your little sister has been keeping me very busy & your big brother too. We all talk about you at least once a day & you are soo very much part of all of us. You are gonna be 2 very soon & I cant believe it has been 2 years since i saw your gorgeous face. Mummy is gonna find you a new train for your birthday I will try & find a nice bright one. Love you lots baby boy xxx
Hello my bubba, just need to make sure your watching over us. Mummy, your big bro & lil sis are going on hols to Devon so I need you to keep us safe on our journey there & back. And keep an eye on Daddy for me. Love you my forever Baby xxxxxxx
Hello bubs, have been thinking of you more & more lately. Another year is here & its just another year without you & i hate it. How can a person be so happy but so so so sad as well. i love you with all my being xxxxxxxxx
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